It has been 1 year since Marcus and I signed our contract with the Ethiopian adoption program and mailed our first payment to our agency. At that time (and still now, at times), I was convinced that we were a little crazy. We did not have money in the bank to fund this adoption....who am I kidding, we didn't even have a house of our own! We had been married for 1 year and 9 months, and we had moved to a new city only 6 months before. Yet, we still felt like God was telling us that it was the right time to start our adoption journey. We still firmly believe that God has laid adoption on our hearts.
Throughout the last year, we have seen God do some amazing things. We were able to purchased a house. By God's grace, we have had enough money in the bank to make every single adoption payment. We made it through the mountain of paperwork and home study visits, even while moving into a new home. During this last year, our Dossier made it across the ocean and into the hands of coordinators IN Ethiopia, putting us on the official waiting list! (We have now been officially waiting for 113 days!) We prayed fervently for months when Ethiopia threatened to shut down international adoption, and we rejoiced when the country decided to remain open to international adoption. We have seen hundreds of people rally around us with support and prayer. (Thank you so much. It means more than you will ever know.) So many others have decided to encourage us or share personal stories about how adoption has impacted their lives. In the last year, we have prayed for and fallen in love with a little boy that we have never met, never seen...who may not even be born yet! We have also fallen more in love with our Savior as we have seen and experienced the parallel between earthly adoption and heavenly adoption.
Throughout everything, we never doubted God, but we also know that we don't deserve everything that He has poured out on us over the last year, and we are truly grateful. This last year has not been easy, but it has been worth it. During the last year, our Faith and Trust has grown immensely as we continue to realize that nothing, including this adoption, is within our control. All we can do is give it to God and know that He will bring our son home in His perfect timing, if it is His will. We know that, no matter what, this journey has already been amazing, and it is one that we were meant to take. Here we are, 1 year later, with another baby on the way, and we are still so sure that this is how God has led us to build our family. We know we have many months left in this journey, but we cannot wait to see how He leads and provides in this next year. Maybe this will be the year that we will meet our son!